Choices

I was born in Russia, where I lived for thirteen years before getting adopted along with my sister into an american family. These lyrics were written about our mother, who has struggled with drug addictions that proved to be fatal to her life. Although this is a scoop from my personal life, i know a lot of people would be able to relate to these lyrics.

The year was nineteen and ninety one

A mother gave birth to her only son

Alcoholic and drug addict, she held her kid

Thinking back and feeling sorry for all the things she did

Those nights, when she was trashed beyond belief

Those days, when she couldn't leave

Her life of constant addiction

Listen closely, cause this aint no fiction.

Closely she held her newly born

And you could of almost sworn

That she looked ahead, to a new life

But she didn't change and died by a knife.

Cause as soon as she was out of the hospital door

She left behind everything to which she swore.

To start a new life, away from alcohol and drugs

To replace those idols with something as simple as hugs.

She had the desire, bud didn't have the will

And once again, everything from there went downhill.

Back into the partying scene,

She once again lived as a fiend.

This continued for five more years

And constant unsatisfaction left her in a lot of tears.

She used the source of the problem, as a way to cope

Dope to release her of alcohol, and alcohol against her dope.

Living the life from a drink to a drink, she didn't stop long enough to think

That the same baby boy, in that hospital room

Might be left without a mother very soon.

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We all mess up, and we are given chances

To progress forward, to make minor advances

Sometimes its hard, and we all strife

But not to take those chances, can cause you your life.

And if you just don't care, if your heart is to empty and bare

Then may be you should get a pair, and grow some serious hair

Cause really you aint being fair

To those who actually care, bout yours and their welfare.

Stop telling yourself all the fucking lies

Sometimes you gotta step back and realize

That when your buried, its more than you that dies.

So make a right choice, and do it quick

Cause it might have been your last choice as we speak.

Money got scarce, addictions got worse

She constantly needed a new money source

As the desperation grew, her morality decreased

Until it finally just seized to exist.

Taking advantage of the situation

Her friends didn't take a moment of hesitation

Offered her money, for sexual favors

And too stupid to think, she considered them her saviors.

Time passed, and things got harder

The mother fell further and further

Now she was sleeping with dudes she didn't know

An addict turned into a hoe.

Her family tried to help her condition

But the mother didn't have any ambition

She lost the ones that loved her

Until she didn't have anyone anymore.

Now all she had, was her two young babies,

Something else to replace her addiction, may be

But that was not the case

The kids went without food for days

So she can satisfy her ever wanting desire

And she met more men, but all of them ended up being liars.

Her condition worsened, doors started closing in

Life became harder for the mother fiend

Now she was at the point of no return

Far from that mindset of the day her child was born

And although she was torn, she closed the final door.

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She met the wrong kind of people

The kind that thrive on purely evil

And they promised the will give her the doze

But first she had to take off all her clothes.

By now it was too late

Because in their minds, the guys have already sealed her fate

Nothing out of ordinary, happened at first

They all proceeded to commit intercourse

When it was all done, the mother asked for her pay

"Bitch what the fuck did you say?"

Then all at once, they started attacking

All you could hear was her screams and bones cracking

But they were at a place where no one lived for a mile

So all her screams of agony were futile.

Then one of the guys, pulled out a knife

He snickered, as he saw fear in her eyes.

As she realized she was going to die

She stopped screaming and started to cry

Her heart started racing, her throat became dry

Then she felt a sharp pain in her stomach, and proceeded to die.

That was the last day of her in this world

But the life has just begun for her son and young baby girl.

They were hundreds of miles away as she took her last breath

As she stared in the eyes of her new savior--death

As i think about that moment, I almost wanna cry

Because those little kids who were left in this world

Were my sister and I.

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